When I lost my friend...The sign of a beautiful person is that they always see beauty in others!

I used to have a friend. A very good friend. Her name was Lindsey and some time ago I received this shocking, saddest news that she passed away. 

The friendship of Lindsey and I has begun when I was about 15 years old and my family and I moved to Canada. With moving, everything was new to me. New country, new city, new teachers, new students, new life. I have to admit that beginnings were not completely easy for me. I was struggling to keep up with the pace in class since my English skills were not perfect and I was little worried how am I going to fit into the environment, how am I going to make some new friends. 

And then I met Lindsey. This happy, bright, caring and understanding girl, who was always putting others first. Who was always there to help and listen, no matter what. She made me feel welcomed, she simply became my friend and that was something I will cherish and appreciate for the rest of my life. 

And then one day, my birthday came. And Lindsey and her friend prepared the birthday celebration for me. Even though both of these amazing girls knew me for such a short time, they decided to make my day truly special and make me feel loved. So there we were three happy girls enjoying a good time in each others company. 

After graduating high school, I stayed in contact with Lindsey, we messaged, we talked. But one day I have learnt that Lindsey is gone. Forever. 

The last time we messaged, she wrote me that we have to catch up sometimes, meet up for coffee and talk about everything which has happened in our lives so far. The saddest part is that this day will never come. There is so much I wish I have said to Lindsey. There is so much I wish I could say to her right now. She was a friend like everyone wants to have, she was the example of how true friend should treat you, she was the inspiration to this world, Lindsey was simply unique.

The sign of a beautiful person is that they always see beauty in others. Lindsey was one of them. It is so sad and tragic that such a beautiful person couldn't stay with us and left us. I wish I could have helped... How I wish I could have been there for her, when she needed it the most. There are so many things I wish I could have said to her, so she would stay with us, so she would get out from the darkness and saw the light again. 

Nobody deserves to feel depressed and down. Depression is a mental illness and it is feeding on you. It's taking all your positive thinking away while negative thinking is all you have.The negativity controls you to such an extent that you might end up feeling with no reason to live. That you might end up feeling like you have nothing to live for anymore. You might feel so down, that you feel like you can't fight this situation you are in anymore. And once you give up, you are losing yourself. And that's the saddest part. 

And the thing I am thinking about all over again is that how such a bright, always full of smile girl could not see the reason to live anymore? 

Behind the smile can sometimes hide deep pain and struggle.To know that my friend was in such pain and emptiness that she couldn't say yes to life anymore, it breaks my heart.

Think for a moment about all people in your life you love and care about. Show them your love! Let them know how much they mean to you, because you never know when they can be taken away from you. We all have limited time in this word and we need to make it valuable. Treat others just the way you want to be treated, offer a helping hand when someone needs it, be a good listener, give a hug or friendly smile to people around you, be the person who will shine! Be the person who will brighten the lives of others! It is your life, your journey, so remember: By making people around you happy, you are making yourself happy. It is mutual and that's what it is all about. Loving and caring, listening and helping. 

Remember, there is always people around you, who need some kind of help. Maybe a just little bit of encouragement...Maybe a little bit of advice...Maybe a little bit of smile and understanding... Whatever it is, just give the good to people. Let them know that you actually care. Let them know, that they are not going through this alone. Simply be there for someone! You might  be just saving someone else's life. 

 

To Lindsey, with love! Until we see each other again! Carry you in my heart always!

 

Lucy

 



 

 

 

 

 

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